Here she comes again...

Today was a balmy 55 degree November day. Tomorrow it's coming. Winter. By Thanksgiving Day the high will be 30. Soooooo...

Heavenly father, Mother earth, Brother sun and Sister moon, thank you for the gift of life and thank you for the gift of this day. I also thank you for adversity for it is in the face of adversity that we rise above. I thank you for the gift of plenty as I am well equipped to help others. Finally, thank you for the gift of love, both the verb and the noun, for it is beautiful.

Father, Mother, Brother, Sister - I pray for peace and to be peaceful. I pray to be deserving of your graces.

So there you have it - really, really bad buddhism - but if I've learned anything over the past few months it is that I don't know as much as I used to think. Buddhist tenets speak to me, whereas the concept of God didn't. Now...well now I'm not so certain about God. He hasn't spoken to me. Yet. But his hand, or that of serendipity, has clearly been at work in my life.

Too much to explain. I suggest watching the moving Grand Canyon and learn to be open to miracles.

So there.

The Passing of a Dear Friend

My closest friend passed away yesterday. The trauma of knowing this is too much to bear, but what can I do? All things of this world are finite and all things are born, grow and eventually die on different time scales; they have different start and end points.

I've already cried as my friend grew weaker and visibly showed the effects of disease and illness. What is left for me to do now but continue to breathe and to move. Maybe grow, maybe reach out to someone new.

I wrote months ago about the macro and the micro and that all that ever was is now and ever shall be. So, I guess, my friend isn't really gone - just passed from the realm of matter to that of energy and the energy is dispersing around the world. Maybe that's good.

I just wish I'd had one more good day...